Don’t forget to be grateful!

For almost a year now (since the three of us created our vision boards and hung them up) I’ve asked you almost every day to think of the 3 things you’re grateful for. This simple act of awareness does two things:

First, it opens up your mind and heart to those things that are good in your life. No matter what dark cloud hovers over you at that time, you’re reminded of what matters most and to get over the dark and bring in the light. In the most simplest of terms, you turn that frown upside down!

Second, it brings you closer to Heaven and getting those things you desire. God (our father), Jesus (our savior), our angels (our protectors) and the Universe (everything around us) will feel your appreciation, and when this happens, all good comes to you.

Have you ever heard of the saying, “you get what you give”? Well, it’s very true. You must give love to receive love. You must give to those who need to receive what you need. You must think positive for positive things to happen in your life.

This is the basic premise of the Law of Attraction. Put the things out there that you want to receive. And constantly thank God, angels and the Universe for your awesome life and for the things you desire, and watch your life change.

If you do this, you will get what you desire. So keep looking at your vision boards; visualize or see yourself doing all of those thing and getting all of those things you want. And ALWAYS be grateful for what you have.

Cuz just when you think your life is bad, someone else’s is always worse. And at the end of the day, while you might not have everything you want at that moment, life is pretty damn good.

Si vision board

Sol vision board

Vee vision board

Be bold

Be the change you want to see in the world. Give love.

Our great state and our nation have suffered many unspeakable tragedies this week. First, with the killing of an innocent man in Minnesota and the subsequent retaliation killings of police officers in Dallas to the tragic death of a little girl who was crushed by large pieces of a bridge that became dislodged after a truck ran into it.

The point here is, you never know when your time to leave this earth will be.

So spend time with each other; love a lot; hug really tight; kiss until you feel smothered; and always live each day to its fullest, doing everything you want and never miss a day without telling those you love how you feel.

AND, always choose love. Even when someone treats your terribly; even when bad things happen; choose to approach that person with love. Instead of firing back with hate or anger, take the higher road and give love. Remember when Jesus said, turn the other cheek? That’s what this means. If we all did this, we wouldn’t have these terrible things happening around us. Be the change you want to see in the world.

In summary, be patient and forgive quickly. Life is too short. So always, give love.

I love you girls soooooo much. You’re the best things that have ever happened to me.

Be the change

Today is always hard

August 31 is the day your daddy and I got married (in 2002). After two years of being divorced, it hasn’t gotten any easier to think about the significance of this day. Sometimes I wish we could just go back, when life seemed so much simpler.

At least two great things came out of this day – you two girls! And because of that I can always look at this day with love in my soul, despite my pain. 

“Running” and tears at Taco Bell

It was the last Thursday of summer break and Sienna and I were having lunch at Taco Bell. All of the sudden, “Running” by No Doubt came on the restaurant speakers and tears filled my eyes. Sienna asked what was wrong and I told her the song reminded me of daddy. She then proceeded to tell me that she heard the song “Say Something” in the car with her grandmother and she said it made her cry thinking of me and daddy. She started to cry as she recalled the moment, which made me cry more. So there we sat, in Taco Bell, both of us crying and neither one of us giving a fuck who saw us. We just cried – this was our moment of shared pain. 

Pain is the toughest but most necessary emotion to face. There’s no way around it so you need to just embrace it. To heal, we must feel our feelings and carry on. It’s ok to get stuck in the moment, feel the pain, but you gotta pick up again and choose to smile. 

The truth is, the tears of this circumstance will probably never subside, so we must cope as the memories surface. And never forget to recall the good times and smile. 

Lady things are happening…

After months of cramps and breakouts, Solana finally started her period on July 10, 2015 – at 12 years old. Thankfully, she was fully prepared for this moment due to our many talks, but she still had many questions, which is totally understandable. She didn’t care about starting; but she did get bummed about not being able to swim.

This milestone has served as yet another thrust in bringing us closer together. She’s asking for more mami time and I absolutely love it. I pray that we only grow closer each and every year.

I love my Nini.

Don’t let the past define you

Solana and Sienna,

Inevitably you will make mistakes – things you regret. But you need to learn to love yourself and forgive yourself, as well as others. Always keep love at the forefront of your decisions.

Here’s a lesson on this from something I read:

“You ruin your life by letting your past govern it. It is common for certain things in life to happen to you. There will be heartbreak, confusion, days where you feel like you aren’t special or purposeful. There are moments that will stay with you, words that will stick. You cannot let these define you – they were simply moments, they were simply words. If you allow for every negative event in your life to outline how you view yourself, you will view the world around you negatively.

“If you don’t allow yourself to move past what happened, what was said, what was felt, you will look at your future with that lens, and nothing will be able to breach that judgment. You will keep on justifying, reliving, and fueling a perception that shouldn’t have existed in the first place.”

The bottom line here is, you are what you believe. The self-fulfilling prophecy is more than just a notion. So love yourself; forgive yourself; love and laugh often.

Ustedes son my vida!

Recent Moments

On Wednesday, Oct. 15, my sweet Sienna wanted me to lay with her prior to going to sleep and it just so happened that I was going to sleep next to her anyway this night because Abuelita Berta and Tio were in town.

Well, when I laid next to her, she grabbed my face, caressed it and held my hand telling me how much she loved me. She always has to touch me and it just shows how much she’s still in love with me (since that fades once they grow from babies to teens). It doesn’t matter where we sit, she has to sit either on me (preferred choice) or next to me, but always touching me. I love it so much and it’s moments like this that I will treasure forever.

Then the following morning, I had a moment with my sweet Solana. She’s not an affectionate person like Sienna, but she has her own way of connecting with me on a different, much mature and sincere level. She may not be into me hugging, kissing and doting on her, but she does like and appreciate my attention.

On the morning of Thursday, Oct. 16 as I was dropping her off at school, we were coming out of a personal but funny conversation in which I was making her laugh (which doesn’t happen often so I was loving it). And as she was getting out of the car, she just smiled this lovely smile at me. Then as she went to the back of the car to grab her bag out of the hatch, she did it again – smiled a giant smile at me and made eye contact with me through the rear-view mirror. Already swollen with much love and thinking I got such a treat from her, I got ONE MORE glance as she walked away. It was greatness and I knew it was her way of telling me she loved me so much.

I’m so grateful to God and the universe for my beautiful babies and these memorable moments.

Rave Reviews at School This Year

I’ve been meaning to write this post since the parent/teacher conferences earlier this school year. The girls both got rave reviews.

Solana’s teachers had wonderful things to say about her integrity, selflessness and work ethic. And when the teacher asked her about something special that Sol had done that made her feel good, she responded with a story about a time in Gifted and Talented (GT) in which they had to break up into groups and one of her friends was going to be stuck in a group that was considered the “outsider” group. Sol said her friend started crying because she didn’t want to be with this group of strange kids that no one really talked to. When Sol saw how sad her friend was, she left the “cool” group she was in to allow her friend to have that spot and she took the spot in the less popular group. She told me she felt really good about what she did and that she ended up making new friends in the process. I couldn’t have been more proud at the selfless act of kindness Solana exhibited that day. She always makes me want to be a better person.

Sienna also got rave reviews this year. The biggest compliment she got from her teacher was that every time an assignment was given, before Sienna would begin tackling it, she would walk over to Woods, a boy with special needs, to make sure he understood the task and even go as far as to get him started. I was so happy to hear that my baby girl was taking care of others who couldn’t take care of themselves.

In each of these instances, I believe the girls showed their true spirits and their inherent ability to lead. I have no doubt we are raising extraordinary girls who will continue to love, care and give to others, leaving this world a little better than how they found it.

Missing you

When you are away from me, I miss you both terribly. Can’t wait to pick you up today and be with you. My babies.


Being bilingual is being comedic

Sienna is so funny and she always says the funniest things. One day, Braxton was driving with her and they drove past the Lake Austin Pawn Shop. When she noticed the sign, she asked, “Do they sell pan at the pawn shop?”

Hence the title of this post.

Love my baby.